Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Today, someone as me about my friendship..

When she ask me this question, i was stunned~

I don't know how to answer them~

Because of this question, i change my mood for whole day~

Sometimes, i wish no one understand me~

Just let me be alone~

Don't pity me and don't ask me about anything, unless i tell you~

I did it..

As i said before~

i won;t tell anyone my sadness and unhappy from now on~

It was so cruel for me~

The pain stay in the deepest on my heart~

The feeling is hard to express it out~

Can you imagine how pain is it?

Erm~

At the beggining, i know he loves her~

But i still put my leg on this thing

Now, i start envy about that girl~

I don't know why i become like that~

I found that the world was so cruel~

But i will treat it as a test~

I believe i will cope with it~

all the thing is inside my hand~

I am the one who can control my life, emotion and everything a out me~

No one can affect my life n emotion~

Now, i have to learn how to put down~

Since i take it uo, now i should put it down~

Sunday, July 3, 2011

That feeling is so pain~

Pain until i can't cry it out~

I believe if i can cry it out, i won't be so pain like now~

I am wondering, am i did a big mistake?

Now, i get the answer~I did it~

After i did all this stupid mistake, i told to my close friend, their answer told me i did a big mistake~

And there is no one support me or comfort me~

Sometimes, i am thinking if i just keep quiet when i face problem, how would all thing happen?

From the mistake, i know that my two besta sister no longer is my besta sister anymore..

I can't put the blame on them, because this is what i deserve it...

I am the one who make this changes~

If i did not did any changes or something hurt them, this will not happen...

I really hope i can get back my friendship~

i see everyone around was so happy and hanging aroundwith their close friend but i am alone~

Yeah, i got a lot of friend, but there is no more close friend for me~

There is still one more close friend around me but i know he will leave me soon~

When he get the new relationship, he will leave me for sure~

I start prepare for this happen~

I am wondering, can i start a new relationship now?

I think i really don't know how to love someone already~

my pain was so deep...

I just realize my pain will be so deep~

Deep until i couldn't express it out through words or sentences~

I hpe i will let time bring all my those pain away~